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crapton [Sep. 1st, 2011|02:55 pm]
helen of troy.
it's been a while...


there's a familiar place just along the shore
if i walk down far enough
i won't stop until i can't walk anymore
it's tradgic and a shame
but there's only me to blame
i just can't get myself over these waves

i'm addicted, just an addict
it's addictive, let me have it
tell me to let go of my past

seems i only write about the ocean
the ships keep on sinking
and the tides



i put down all my vices
and i trade them for your smile
a promise that i will keep to my grave
break down all these walls
trace your lips with my memory
would you save me

cause your hands are cold
and your arms open
i'll be there
when the summer ends
what's four thousand miles
and the atlantic ocean
for your blue eyes
i'd swim it twice and again

somehow you care
when i'm falling off the edge
and you're always there
even if i've got nothing left

how can you stare
i can't stand my own reflection
but i don't dare
won't say a word
cause i love the attention
you make me feel alive



my eyes locked on you
whoah my emeralds
will find your baby blues
all these months
to get to your lips
this worlds gonna stop
the moment that we kiss
i know it's hard
but just keep faith
we are so strong
you know that we'll make it

i tell you always
you echo forever
let's save the lives
of who said we would never
we'll give hope
with our fingers laced
but we won't hold our breath
just in case
the only thing i need
is you-
you know that it's true



if words were miles i'd win this war
every letter would bring me closer
every song to the coast or-
washing me up to the shore
pick me up, i've been broken
all i need is your smile
take my hand
we'll repair these sails
and get away for a while

away from a tragedy on every corner
disaster at every turn

just you and me
this blue sea
we'll learn to love
the one we swore we'd defeat
just you and i
don't be shy
cause my ocean is your eyes
just you and i
you heard right
i said my ocean is your eyes

all the world is up in arms
but you have me
don't be alarmed
my line protect
i've passed the test
now we can sail among the rest

just you and me
this violent sea
swearing to defend who they defeat
just you and i
don't think twice
cause my ocean is your eyes.



i won't ever admit it
but i need your help
your hand
your arms
to hold me
to keep me
control me
believe me
i'm losing myself again

i said
i'm on my last line of defense



the engine cut off a good twelve miles ago
but the worst part is
i've got thirty miles to go
you get a lot time to think
when everythings about waiting
and you really kind of start to sink
into yourself, cause there isn't anyone else.

i could walk backwards
revisit all the details
try to find a way to understand
but i've got a long way to go
so i better get used to being alone
there's a few things you should know
like i feel you even in my bones

it's a long walk with an empty hand
what makes it worse
is i'm suprised i can even stand
on my own
there's never been a better time to say
that i need you or anything
and you'll tell me it'll be okay
cause i'm strong enough
i don't feel strong enough

oh whoah
this is me needing you
oh whoah
i'm in pieces



i'll sleep with your hands over mine
from four thousand miles away
and i'll read each stroke of your letter
wear it thinner everyday
i'm counting down the hours
i'm faithless but i still pray
i'm getting stronger

so don't you say
that we're not okay
because i promised that i'd stay
you know my fingers
were made for yours
we're getting closer everyday
don't you say
that we're not okay
because i promised
that i'd stay

just keep your eyes on the shore
my sails are set with your name
and i know we're getting restless
don't jump if it keeps you sane
i'm watching all our shadows
but you told me to wait
i'm trying so hard

and it's okay
to break down
it's alright
to lose yourself sometimes
but don't let go
don't lose hope
just ask me for my help



if you need a moment
take a lifetime
i'd wait forever to call you mine

i know you're hurting
i know you're scared
but you can't save the world
at five in the morning
so just take a breath
and close your eyes

i'm right here
i'm in the same place
saying "always"
you know I'll stay right by your side
cause i'm the one
that'll be here
in the morning
i'm right here, just close your eyes

we're counting down the days
following each hour
until i'm there
i just wish i could stay

i know you're hurting
i know you're scared
i'm trying to save the world
but it's five in the morning
so just take my hand
and close your eyes


and if you need a moment
please take a lifetime
i'll be forever by your side

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influx! [Jan. 27th, 2011|05:10 am]
helen of troy.
[Current Music |tegan and sara]

what's it take to built a ship
have it float
take the waves
make a promise
that i'll save you
said i'll save you

use my skin to stretch the sails
ride into the sun
with the wind
i'm so sorry
you can't win this one
you can't win this one, no

am i your current captain- i'll
wear the hat
speak the words
take you far
make it hurt less
i'll make it hurt less

i swear i can read these maps
get us there
said i swear
take us home
you ask me where
you ask me where

i don't know
what i'm doing
i don't know
who i am
all i've figured out thus far
is the current chapter of this story
dunno know where we are
i can only guess where we're going

so that looks like a bad storm
what to do
we'll hurry up
i love you
but we can't give up
no we can't give up

the clouds are gone now
look at that
rode it out
made it here
we won that round
we won that round again

c'mon let's sink this ship
with our lips
the way we kiss
where are your hands
don't tell me this
don't tell me this is it

i think were going down
time to swim
solid ground
land ahead
try not to drown
we'll try not to drown


i can only guess where we're going
i can only guess where we're going
goodbye, goodbye
goodbye, bye, bye, bye


i know it's harder everyday
to try and say that things are fine
and then
the world just crashes down to you

wish i could make this go away
practice and play out each line
but i know i'm going to lose-
i know

none of these roads
will ever take me
home to your smile
i'm so cold
and you're unstable
fading with each mile

just believe me when i say
it will be better when i'm there
and then
i can take away the pain

don't try to tell me it's okay
just today i had to spare
your mind
lie and say it was the rain
i guess


you're fading with each mile
you're fading with each mile

if i could swim the ocean
take your hand
make you mine for good
break my bones and
help you stand
give you what i could
i can't

i'm so cold
and i'm unstable
i'm fading with each smile


you say you're tired
don't want to be that good girl anymore
call me a liar
but i fell for the one you were before
and you still are
everything i dreamed of-
everything i wished for
you're mine
i promise you always will be
you're mine
you'll never need to ever doubt me
just say you can't live without me

losing grip
then the ground is lost under your feet
falling apart
don't look down, keep your eyes on me
and who you are
everything i dreamed of
everything i needed
you're mine
i promise you always will be
you're mine
you'll never need to ever doubt me
just say you can't live without me

don't lose hope
just take my hand
don't let go
tell me, baby, can you stand
on your own
you don't know
you don't know
you are


a million words left unsaid
in all these letters i'll never send
to you, to you
lock them away, keep them inside
smile through it all
and say i'm fine
for you, for you

it's all for you
so could you save me?
say you need me?
beg me, push me under
anything, just don't believe me

cause I'm a liar (liar, liar)
i lit the match
and let you stay in the fire
every promise i made i kept
and it's still as hard as the day you left
i can't, i can't
i miss getting


the words to tell you i love you are long gone
i stay up all night to write you this song
i've said them
i've told you that i miss you


i can't do this any longer
i can't be your strong girl
i can't be the stable and the calm
the one who says nothings wrong
i can't be that girl
my head is spinning around
oh watch me crash down
i can't hold together without your help

i don't wanna be the one
who makes mistakes
throws it all away
fucks everything up- again
i don't wanna be the one
that has to say
it'll be okay
you know we'll be alright in the end
but i can be your girl

you can't take this any further
locking it inside is so much harder
you can't keept it secret from them all
i won't let you take the fall
you won't be that girl
feel like your spinning around
i won't let you crash down
you can't do this alone


you don't have to be the one
that takes the blame
locks it all away
takes the fall- again
you don't have to be the one
who always has to say
it'll be okay
i know we'll be alright in the end
cause you'll always be my girl

oh, you'll always be my girl.


everything you do seems to beg the question
what are we waiting for
when we don't know which direction
all of this chemistry is just a mystery to me
we're a text book case of uncertainty
so say it again
cause you mean everything to me.

where are you
where are you right now?
i need you
i need your voice to tell me
how to be
in the face of tragedy
missed flights aside
i'm stuck in between
everything that i believed
about all the words you said to me


it must be sunday
cause it's always sunday when
the world comes crashing down to my feet
so this is the bottom
hello rock bottom, old friend
with open arms welcoming me

oh i've seen this all before
you'll put on your coat
but you'll never walk out the door
said i've seen it all before
take your best shot
we'll fight
then you'll come back for more

we're digging graves here
open graves here
so we can lie forever under the stars


i hate sundays
i fucking hate sundays
cause every damn sunday
it seems your leaving me

oh you've seen it all before
i do it all the time
i screw up
but i keep you coming for more


you found me
underneath the clear blue sea
and i owe you everything

you locked my heart away
found a safe place for me to stay
and you, you're my everything

i wish on every star
that you weren't so far away
cause you're my everything

i've sank so deep
now i can't breathe
and i wonder
am i your everything?
oh i wonder
do i mean anything?


do you know what you do to me?
you drive me crazy
make me jaded
but i don't hate it
i try to keep myself standing
but your wind blows me over
pulls me under
are you sober?
am i sober?
now that you're older
are you different?
am i distant?
are you listening?
yes i'm listening

oh, oh, oh
look what i've become
a ruin for you
a shadow in your love
there's no drink or drug
that i can think of
gets me so strung out
then you kill me with that pout
no, no, no
don't change a thing
i'm all for you
i'll do what you want me to
i said i'll sing until my lungs go
cause i feel you from my head to my toes
don't you know... don't you know?


help me
i'm falling short
trying to be everything you expect
but you don't need to know the rest
save me
cause i want more
keeping silent to keep me sane
but i'm too lost to play my own game

i tried to be the knight in shinning armor
the one that you deserve
but i'm falling short in the end
i'm not worth this
i'm not worth this
admit it, i'm not worth this
am i something you'll really miss?
because my sword is rusted
and i can't seem to find my way
fighting through my own head
should i go or should i stay?
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chills [Jan. 20th, 2011|03:13 pm]
helen of troy.
[Current Mood |frustratedfrustrated]
[Current Music |tegan and sara]

there's some things that i hide behind
when it's cold at night
and your hands freeze trying to make this right
watch my pocket empty
while my head is the clouds
high in the sky

you take me somewhere i've never been
swing me around, i'm lost and broken
but, oh, did you know
that i'll never let you go
cause you give me chills like the middle of winter

it's too damn early to try and say
i need you or anything
cause you'll tell me no we have to wait
here's my chest wide
open, waiting for you
and you're too late


so will your heart still skip
if i told you this was it
cause baby, baby i swear that you're it
would i lie about
what you do to me
i'll shut up now
i'll shut up now

cause your lips curl
into that smile you know they can
and you'll swing me around
find me cause i'm broken
but, oh, did you know
that i'll never let you go
cause you give me chills like the middle of winter


and you give me chills like the middle of winter
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just another one. [Jan. 12th, 2011|07:59 pm]
helen of troy.

it seems that every time
things seem fine
it all crashes to my feet
crumbling down
and i'm spinning around
this isn't how it should be

there we were
perfect in every way
now i can't find you
no i can't find you

i have all these vices
saved for a crisis
but they won't do me in
driving alone
on my way home
but i can't say where i've been

i'm waiting for a car crash
i'm looking for any sign
the roads are pristine for this
so i can see if you're still mine
six minutes to explain myself
to tell you what i felt
and how i'll do anything
cause this is hell

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too much tegan and sara [Dec. 29th, 2010|03:12 pm]
helen of troy.
remember when you used to say you loved me
before the summer
before forever
before the sun set on our wrists?
i never understood that you loved me
before autumn
before august
before i couldn't stop staring at your lips

before boston
before boston
putting on my coat
walking out the door
after all of it
after it all hit
i know i've loved you since before
we ever could admit

i can safely say that i'll love you
after everything
after every day
after wasting time on my own
promise that i'll still love you
after winter
through the summer
after waiting a year to get you alone

so what
so what
am i going to do
i said
so what
so what
am i going to do
with all the months i've got left without you

before september
before september
putting on my coat
walking out the door
after all of it
after i get
to tell you i've love you since before
we could ever admit to anything

to anything
to anything
i said i've loved you before
and i love you so much more
than anything.
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