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influx! [Jan. 27th, 2011|05:10 am]
helen of troy.
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what's it take to built a ship
have it float
take the waves
make a promise
that i'll save you
said i'll save you

use my skin to stretch the sails
ride into the sun
with the wind
i'm so sorry
you can't win this one
you can't win this one, no

am i your current captain- i'll
wear the hat
speak the words
take you far
make it hurt less
i'll make it hurt less

i swear i can read these maps
get us there
said i swear
take us home
you ask me where
you ask me where

i don't know
what i'm doing
i don't know
who i am
all i've figured out thus far
is the current chapter of this story
dunno know where we are
i can only guess where we're going

so that looks like a bad storm
what to do
we'll hurry up
i love you
but we can't give up
no we can't give up

the clouds are gone now
look at that
rode it out
made it here
we won that round
we won that round again

c'mon let's sink this ship
with our lips
the way we kiss
where are your hands
don't tell me this
don't tell me this is it

i think were going down
time to swim
solid ground
land ahead
try not to drown
we'll try not to drown


i can only guess where we're going
i can only guess where we're going
goodbye, goodbye
goodbye, bye, bye, bye


i know it's harder everyday
to try and say that things are fine
and then
the world just crashes down to you

wish i could make this go away
practice and play out each line
but i know i'm going to lose-
i know

none of these roads
will ever take me
home to your smile
i'm so cold
and you're unstable
fading with each mile

just believe me when i say
it will be better when i'm there
and then
i can take away the pain

don't try to tell me it's okay
just today i had to spare
your mind
lie and say it was the rain
i guess


you're fading with each mile
you're fading with each mile

if i could swim the ocean
take your hand
make you mine for good
break my bones and
help you stand
give you what i could
i can't

i'm so cold
and i'm unstable
i'm fading with each smile


you say you're tired
don't want to be that good girl anymore
call me a liar
but i fell for the one you were before
and you still are
everything i dreamed of-
everything i wished for
you're mine
i promise you always will be
you're mine
you'll never need to ever doubt me
just say you can't live without me

losing grip
then the ground is lost under your feet
falling apart
don't look down, keep your eyes on me
and who you are
everything i dreamed of
everything i needed
you're mine
i promise you always will be
you're mine
you'll never need to ever doubt me
just say you can't live without me

don't lose hope
just take my hand
don't let go
tell me, baby, can you stand
on your own
you don't know
you don't know
you are


a million words left unsaid
in all these letters i'll never send
to you, to you
lock them away, keep them inside
smile through it all
and say i'm fine
for you, for you

it's all for you
so could you save me?
say you need me?
beg me, push me under
anything, just don't believe me

cause I'm a liar (liar, liar)
i lit the match
and let you stay in the fire
every promise i made i kept
and it's still as hard as the day you left
i can't, i can't
i miss getting


the words to tell you i love you are long gone
i stay up all night to write you this song
i've said them
i've told you that i miss you


i can't do this any longer
i can't be your strong girl
i can't be the stable and the calm
the one who says nothings wrong
i can't be that girl
my head is spinning around
oh watch me crash down
i can't hold together without your help

i don't wanna be the one
who makes mistakes
throws it all away
fucks everything up- again
i don't wanna be the one
that has to say
it'll be okay
you know we'll be alright in the end
but i can be your girl

you can't take this any further
locking it inside is so much harder
you can't keept it secret from them all
i won't let you take the fall
you won't be that girl
feel like your spinning around
i won't let you crash down
you can't do this alone


you don't have to be the one
that takes the blame
locks it all away
takes the fall- again
you don't have to be the one
who always has to say
it'll be okay
i know we'll be alright in the end
cause you'll always be my girl

oh, you'll always be my girl.


everything you do seems to beg the question
what are we waiting for
when we don't know which direction
all of this chemistry is just a mystery to me
we're a text book case of uncertainty
so say it again
cause you mean everything to me.

where are you
where are you right now?
i need you
i need your voice to tell me
how to be
in the face of tragedy
missed flights aside
i'm stuck in between
everything that i believed
about all the words you said to me


it must be sunday
cause it's always sunday when
the world comes crashing down to my feet
so this is the bottom
hello rock bottom, old friend
with open arms welcoming me

oh i've seen this all before
you'll put on your coat
but you'll never walk out the door
said i've seen it all before
take your best shot
we'll fight
then you'll come back for more

we're digging graves here
open graves here
so we can lie forever under the stars


i hate sundays
i fucking hate sundays
cause every damn sunday
it seems your leaving me

oh you've seen it all before
i do it all the time
i screw up
but i keep you coming for more


you found me
underneath the clear blue sea
and i owe you everything

you locked my heart away
found a safe place for me to stay
and you, you're my everything

i wish on every star
that you weren't so far away
cause you're my everything

i've sank so deep
now i can't breathe
and i wonder
am i your everything?
oh i wonder
do i mean anything?


do you know what you do to me?
you drive me crazy
make me jaded
but i don't hate it
i try to keep myself standing
but your wind blows me over
pulls me under
are you sober?
am i sober?
now that you're older
are you different?
am i distant?
are you listening?
yes i'm listening

oh, oh, oh
look what i've become
a ruin for you
a shadow in your love
there's no drink or drug
that i can think of
gets me so strung out
then you kill me with that pout
no, no, no
don't change a thing
i'm all for you
i'll do what you want me to
i said i'll sing until my lungs go
cause i feel you from my head to my toes
don't you know... don't you know?


help me
i'm falling short
trying to be everything you expect
but you don't need to know the rest
save me
cause i want more
keeping silent to keep me sane
but i'm too lost to play my own game

i tried to be the knight in shinning armor
the one that you deserve
but i'm falling short in the end
i'm not worth this
i'm not worth this
admit it, i'm not worth this
am i something you'll really miss?
because my sword is rusted
and i can't seem to find my way
fighting through my own head
should i go or should i stay?

[User Picture]From: oworfser
2012-07-22 09:10 pm (UTC)


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